my very own destroyer

blogs are dangerous. look where RPK's blog got him. look where Adele's blog got her. i don't even want to think where my blog will get me if i actually did post every single thing on my mind. Timbuktu, perhaps. or maybe Mars? or somewhere to that effect.

i am seriously thinking about deleting this blog but my decision goes two ways. first, i think i SHOULD delete this blog because almost every day i'm hearing things like "omg, this person just got in trouble for writing this on their blog" and "be careful, this person is reading your blog. watch what you're saying". the cowardly side of me wants to save myself from the trouble and having to explain myself if i do say something wrong. i mean, is it worth it? i've got better things to do than to explain my opinions to those who don't agree, thank you.

and then i think that i SHOULD NOT delete this blog because the stubborn side of me refuses to back down just because somebody doesn't like what i'm saying. its my blog and i have the right to say what i want. to hell with those who don't like it, my opinions have worth. and if i get into trouble, bring it on. i know what i'm talking about and i can talk about whatever i want to. it's a free country and i have my freedom.

then my two contrasting sides come up with a compromise to keep this blog completely neutral and just write about things without actually having a direct opinion about things that are happening. i'll be like a reporter reporting to no one.

but where's the fun in that? i might as well work as a reporter. at least i'll get paid for having no opinion.

so, to satisfy myself, i will say my opinions. i just have to be extremely subtle and indirect so nobody can use my opinions against me. it'll be like a huge mind game.

so, you know what i think? i think power goes to people's heads too much and too often. do we actually have any grounded leaders in the world today? people are either corrupt with power or just chasing for more power which will eventually lead to their corruption. thats what its like with any leader; world leader, school prefect, ketua kampung, whatever. and when somebody speaks out, they do all they can to crush it because nooooo, they can't have somebody having a mind of their own. it tarnishes their shine. its a speck of dirt on their otherwise clean and perfect world.

we're all made of dirt. play with dirt once in a while.

how's that for subtle and indirect?
i somehow think i'm kidding myself because anybody with a brain can figure out what i just wrote.
then again, my opinions have worth. everybody's opinion has worth.