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Dear Nadia,

why are you here? what the heck are you doing? its finals, for God's sake! what are you blogging for? is this going to help you with addmaths tomorrow? NO! study, you idiot, study!

with love,
your conscience.



Dear Conscience,

shut up, will you? i'm trying to relax here. its no good to be all tense and stressed out before an exam. i've gone for addmaths tuition in the morning, i've read some agama, and i can read my chemistry tonight. its just about experiments tomorrow anyway. chill out, will ya? geez.

love you too,
Nadia



Dear Nadia,

as much as i love you, i really need to put my foot down. you act as if you have all the time in the world, yet you have less than 24 hours to read up on agama, practice your addmaths and read your chemistry. next year is your SPM year and if you get into a shit class, you're going to play around all year and God knows whats going to happen to your SPM results. come on, the economic crisis is going to affect Pa and you know it. education is going to be a problem. what if you can't get a scholarship because of your shit results and Pa can't afford to send you to college. then you'll have to go to form 6. and then you'll get into some matrics thing and THEN where will you go? get married, stay at home and live a boring life that you promised yourself you will NOT let happen?
buck up! this is your future we're talking about! where's that drive you had in kindergarten when all you wanted to do was be a doctor and save other kids?? your 6 year old self had more drive and ambition than you do now! and great timing to have no drive, because NOW is the time to make things happen!
what's wrong with you? wake up!

all my love,
your conscience



Dear Conscience,

shut up, man. its not like its SPM now, anyway. quit bugging me, i'm just going to take like 30 minutes.

still love you,
Nadia.



Dear Nadia,

30 minutes could have been spent studying. and 30 minutes of studying could make a difference between a C and a B. and if you read enough, you could get an A. isn't that what you want?
think of it this way: with more A's in the bag, Ma won't be able to nag you to study so much during the long holidays because hey, you got a lot of A's. you can always say you've done your part and would like a little bit of rest. she DID say that if you did well, she would trust you to study on your own and just shut up.
and that means, more going out, more time to sleep and all that stuff.
so whaddaya say? study for a queiter holiday and better future in form 5. or wait for next year so that the pressure can pile on?

love, hugs but no kisses from,
your conscience.



Dear Conscience,

you got a point. i don't want to be nagged at during holidays. fine, i'll study.

love you!
Nadia :)


* a conversation with your conscience could be a form of self motivation. your conscience is usually right.