Happy heartbreak / hearbreakingly happy

How can one thing leave me feeling so happy and yet so sad at the same time?

Let's play a love game

I kinda like Lady Gaga, you know. I like the way she plays with synthesizers and beats. Her clothes and make-up are seriously wild and she never wears pants. Ever. I think that's pretty cool. I mean, if I wouldn't get arrested for indecency or break any religious laws, I would like to walk around without pants. It seems so nice and free.

And yes, I realize that it reads a bit funny. But think about it, being able to do your everyday things without pants. It seems ... fun.

Quote

The one you love and the one who loves you is never the same person



-Chuck Palahniuk

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I should have known this would happen. I should have just kept my mouth shut, and deal with things myself. Or I should have just started taking precautions from last year. I should have just kept my distance and not let myself get close to anyone of the opposite sex. Or of the same sex, for that matter. I should learn to keep my mouth shut and to keep things to myself. I should learn not to get too friendly with people.

God forbid, I should just turn into a hermit or something. Or a hobo. Now I know why loners exist. They probably had the same problem and felt like how I feel right now. Like pushing everyone away and getting through life on my own, without their snide remarks and looks.

What did I do to deserve this, huh? Did I eat too much ice-cream? Is it because I pushed my cat off the bed last week? Did I forget to put a coaster on the table while drinking ice apple juice??

WHAT ??!

Risque

I don't like feeling confused. Especially when it comes to feelings. If you're confused with facts, it's easy because facts, being facts, are clear and straightforward. You get the right facts, you're not confused anymore.
But when it comes to feelings, there's no right or wrong facts to clear your vision. It all depends on decisions made. And half the time, the decision made will leave you only half satisfied. Because the other half will be wondering what would happen if you had done something different.
So ... what would happen if I stopped playing safe and go the other way? What if I just take a chance and see what happens?

Look what I found

Brandon Boyd cut his hair. His long brown locks are gone. He must have received some sign from God saying that short, neat hair is a huge turn on for Nad. And if I'm not mistaken, he cut his hair around the time when Dayah and I were discussing what turns us on. Which was in around May. Kot?

But still, BRANDON BOYD CUT HIS HAIR. Just the way I like it :)

Wabbit!

Meet the new member of the family, Megan Rabbit. Like Megan Fox you know, only she's a rabbit. Hence the name Megan Rabbit. Dayah and I think it's a really good joke, but half the people we explained it to didn't get the joke and gave us really weird looks. The "Am-I-really-friends-with-these-crazy-chicks?" kind of look. But I guess we've gotten used to those looks, so who gives a shit?

But the people who DID get the joke laughed their heads off and started hitting on Megan Rabbit. She's got a whole family now. I'm her momma, Nik is her daddy (he's paying part of the RM30 for her that's why he gets to be the daddy), Dayah is her kakak, Afi is the abang, Adele is the godmother, Amalen is the godfather. And Kevin is Megan Rabbit's boyfriend since he's so crazy over Megan (Fox) he'll satisfy himself with any Megan, even if it is a rabbit.

In school, when I first got her, everyone was excited to high heaven. Megan has been man-handled by many men, I pity her. Seriously. But it was cute seeing all the guys cuddling a little bunny. Most of the girls were all "Alaaa, comelnyaaaa" and left it at that. But the guys wouldn't let little Megs go. It was so sweet, hehe.

Now, little Megan Rabbit is at the Rabbit Villa (Amalen's house) with her other boyfriend, Darth Vader (Amalen's grey rabbit). They're spending their first night together. I hope she won't be pregnant tomorrow. Or dead. You just can't trust these males. Especially with hot sexy thangs like my Megan Rabbit.