I like having someone who is always on the same wavelength as I am. It's so easy to connect and understand each other. I don't have to worry about whether I'm understood because I always am, and I don't have to worry about making a fool of myself because we're both the same kind of fool. It's like I found a male me. A more annoying me, though.
Well, you can't have it both ways.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Saturday, May 30, 2009
A discovery
Nad, you and me... We don't think things other people think about. We're different. We're weird. That's why we get each other so well. Because we're both weird. Or just different.
It is partly true.
Friday, May 29, 2009
Am I on MTV's Boiling Point?
My patience has been tested to its ultimate level by - guess who. My mother, of all people.
I don't know why, she just made me feel like screaming which isn't something that happens a lot. It started innocently enough, with her just wanting to check her e-mail. Then suddenly, I don't know how in heaven's name, she ended up all the way into one of my cousins profiles. Well, I didn't really care about that because she does have a kind of connection with my cousin. Its just an aunty wanting to see how her niece is doing.
Then, she went probing into my friends profiles. That was the part that pissed me off hugely. I mean, those are MY friends. Most of them she doesn't even know personally. I got so annoyed, I walked out of the room because I was worried I might just snatch the mouse away or scream at her unintentionally. And she just probed away for like an hour, while I was simmering silently in the living room and trying to take my mind off it.
After that, she came to the living room and I was watching this French movie on TV. As soon as she came, she started complaining loudly that she missed Boston Legal again. While she was complaining, I was going "You missed the show because you were too busy poking into peoples lives" in my head. After she was done complaining, she changed the channel without a word. Like she didn't even notice that I was watching that movie.
So, I stormed into my room, earning a few glares from my mother because I was being rude. And now, here I am.
I know that she's my mother and that I'm not supposed to be angry or rude to her. But please, do I not get a little respect and privacy as well? Its not like I have anything to hide about my friends, but I would love to keep some things private. And to have a bit of respect.
I don't know why, she just made me feel like screaming which isn't something that happens a lot. It started innocently enough, with her just wanting to check her e-mail. Then suddenly, I don't know how in heaven's name, she ended up all the way into one of my cousins profiles. Well, I didn't really care about that because she does have a kind of connection with my cousin. Its just an aunty wanting to see how her niece is doing.
Then, she went probing into my friends profiles. That was the part that pissed me off hugely. I mean, those are MY friends. Most of them she doesn't even know personally. I got so annoyed, I walked out of the room because I was worried I might just snatch the mouse away or scream at her unintentionally. And she just probed away for like an hour, while I was simmering silently in the living room and trying to take my mind off it.
After that, she came to the living room and I was watching this French movie on TV. As soon as she came, she started complaining loudly that she missed Boston Legal again. While she was complaining, I was going "You missed the show because you were too busy poking into peoples lives" in my head. After she was done complaining, she changed the channel without a word. Like she didn't even notice that I was watching that movie.
So, I stormed into my room, earning a few glares from my mother because I was being rude. And now, here I am.
I know that she's my mother and that I'm not supposed to be angry or rude to her. But please, do I not get a little respect and privacy as well? Its not like I have anything to hide about my friends, but I would love to keep some things private. And to have a bit of respect.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
A form of insulation
Fat woman sitting next to our table in a restaurant.
Mum : Oh my God, Nad. Look at that fat woman sitting next to us.
Me : Yeah, I saw.
Mum : Wow, look at that.
Me : Ma ...
Mum : Her arm must be as big as my thigh!
Me : Ma, you're so FAT.
Mum : *stares blankly at me*
Me : I mean BAD, you're so BAD.
The subconcious mind is a powerful thing.
Mum : Oh my God, Nad. Look at that fat woman sitting next to us.
Me : Yeah, I saw.
Mum : Wow, look at that.
Me : Ma ...
Mum : Her arm must be as big as my thigh!
Me : Ma, you're so FAT.
Mum : *stares blankly at me*
Me : I mean BAD, you're so BAD.
The subconcious mind is a powerful thing.
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Come fly with me, lets fly, lets fly away
Today was pretty historical for me. I flew solo today, literally. I took a plane from Kuantan to KL alone. My dad's friend, Uncle Raju sent me to the airport, told me to take care of myself and to call him if there was anything wrong and then it was just me with only my insecure but excited thoughts for company.
But it wasn't actually that exciting. All I did was hand in some piece of paper to some guy, wait to get on board, get on a plane, get down, wait for a while. Then life went back to normal. I guess its just that "responsibility" feeling eh? My parents feel I'm old and responsible enough to take a plane ride by myself. I guess that's why I'm excited. I have reached that point in life where I am trusted to look after myself. Before, it was always with somebody else. Somebody to help me take care of things, and now here I am getting myself onto a plane.
Its a scary feeling. Cool, but scary.
But while waiting, there was this gay couple sitting at the row of seats in front of me. One of them was pretty young and cute, but his partner looked like his dad. It was pretty sad. They were very stylish too. The young, cute one was wearing a stripy shirt, slacks, complete with skinny tie and polished black plimsolls. His dad/gay partner was wearing a stripy shirt too but he was wearing a blazer.
Maybe they were just two stylish but lembut dudes who happened to be going for a business meeting together?
What IS it with me and gay people?? Any random gay dude on the street I condemn, Maula, Adam Lambert, Elton John.
I'm not prejudiced. I'm just ...principled? Whatever.
But it wasn't actually that exciting. All I did was hand in some piece of paper to some guy, wait to get on board, get on a plane, get down, wait for a while. Then life went back to normal. I guess its just that "responsibility" feeling eh? My parents feel I'm old and responsible enough to take a plane ride by myself. I guess that's why I'm excited. I have reached that point in life where I am trusted to look after myself. Before, it was always with somebody else. Somebody to help me take care of things, and now here I am getting myself onto a plane.
Its a scary feeling. Cool, but scary.
But while waiting, there was this gay couple sitting at the row of seats in front of me. One of them was pretty young and cute, but his partner looked like his dad. It was pretty sad. They were very stylish too. The young, cute one was wearing a stripy shirt, slacks, complete with skinny tie and polished black plimsolls. His dad/gay partner was wearing a stripy shirt too but he was wearing a blazer.
Maybe they were just two stylish but lembut dudes who happened to be going for a business meeting together?
What IS it with me and gay people?? Any random gay dude on the street I condemn, Maula, Adam Lambert, Elton John.
I'm not prejudiced. I'm just ...principled? Whatever.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Fresh
I'm bored. I want to do new things. I want to go horse riding again. I want to go cycling. I want to go swimming. I want to start reading all those untouched books in my cupboard. I want to travel. I want to get out of here.
But I can't.
HOW LONG MUST I WAIIIIIT? Keluar dah ayat The Strokes. I'm going maaaaaad! What if I can't last throughout the year? What if I just lose interest in the middle because of the monotony of life now?
Help.
But I can't.
HOW LONG MUST I WAIIIIIT? Keluar dah ayat The Strokes. I'm going maaaaaad! What if I can't last throughout the year? What if I just lose interest in the middle because of the monotony of life now?
Help.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
100 lies
WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Teh o ais limauuu.
2. Last phone call: Fawwaz
3. Last text message: Ezmeer
4. Last song you listened to: High and Dry, Radiohead
5. Last time you cried: While watching World Trade Center. Yes, I cry with sad movies, its not a crime.
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice : Date as in go out, yeah. Date as in couple, no.
7. Been cheated on: Technically, yeah.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Yeah. My mother gives reallyyy wet kisses =.=
9. Lost someone special: I keep 'em close.
10. Been depressed: To a certain extent.
11. Been drunk and threw up: YES. Haha bodoh.
THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. Red
13. Electric blue
14. Purple
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: jyeah
16. Fallen out of love: jyeahh
17. Laughed until you cried: Almost every day, courtesy of Nurul Hidayah
18. Met someone who changed you: No, I think I'm still the same old crappy Nad.
19. Found out who your true friends were: Yes?
20. Found out someone was talking about you: No.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: I kissed 'em thru da phooooone.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Almost all of them.
23. How many kids do you want?: 2?
24. Do you have any pets: Yes, you see the blog header?
25. Do you want to change your name: What's in a name?
26. What did you do for your last birthday: SHOP! :D
27. What time did you wake up today: 6.30 am
28. What were you doing at midnight: Reading some agama.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Holidays.
30. Last time you saw your Mother: About 2 hours ago.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Autism.
32. What are you listening to right now : Nude, Radiohead
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Tom MySpace? Hahaha.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Virus infected computer.
35. Most visited webpage: Tom punya tu.
36. Whats your real name: Torchlight binti Torres
37. Nicknames: Nad
38. Relationship Status: Married.
39. Zodiac sign: Libroar.
40. Male or female?: Drag queen.
41. Primary School?: SK Bukit Sekilau Sekuali
42. Secondary School?: SMART
43. High school/college?: Weh high school tu secondary school la bongok.
44. Hair colour: Red
45. Long or short: Its both. Its ... Lort
46. Height: Taller than most. Ehemmmm :D
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Wah, ramai :D
48: What do you like about yourself?: I'm taller than most people, hehehehe
49. Piercings: None. Yes, none.
51. Righty or lefty: righty.
FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: Never had one.
53. First piercing: Never had one.
54. First best friend: Sandra :)
55. First sport you joined: Swimming!
56. First vacation: Marang, Terengganu. Best place in the world.
58. First pair of trainers: A pair of Nike's.
RIGHT NOW :
59. Eating: My lips.
60. Drinking: My saliva
61. I'm about to: Go crazy
62. Listening to: Jigsaw Falling Into Place, Radiohead
63. Waiting on: The world to change.
YOUR FUTURE
64. What kids?: Why kids?
65. Get Married?: Duh
66. Career?: Psychotic psychologist
WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Eyes, mi amor.
68. Hugs or kisses: I like big bear hugs :D
69. Shorter or taller: Taller, I've had enough short remarks to last me a lifetime =.=
70. Older or Younger: Younger pon boleh! Hahahahahaha
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Both.
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Nice body.
73. Sensitive or loud: Loud, so that I can be loud too.
74. Hook-up or relationship: Hook up dohhh -___-
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Neither.
HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: Eee no.
77. Drank hard liquor: No, bongok
78. Lost glasses/contacts: Nope.
79. Sex on first date: Yes, wow its fun try lah
80. Broken someone's heart: Yes.
82. Been arrested: No.
83. Turned someone down: Yes.
84. Cried when someone died: Yes.
85. Fallen for a friend?: I love my friends :)
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: Fo' shizzle.
87. Miracles: Yes, I've had quite a few.
88. Love at first sight: No.
89. Heaven: Yes.
90. Santa Claus: Fat guy with a beer gut giving out presents to good kids? No.
91. Kiss on the first date: No.
92. Angels: Yes.
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: No
95. Did you sing today?: All the way through today.
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: No
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: 2008
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: The whole of last year.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: No, more afraid of falling out because its usually pretty messy
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: No.
1. Last beverage: Teh o ais limauuu.
2. Last phone call: Fawwaz
3. Last text message: Ezmeer
4. Last song you listened to: High and Dry, Radiohead
5. Last time you cried: While watching World Trade Center. Yes, I cry with sad movies, its not a crime.
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice : Date as in go out, yeah. Date as in couple, no.
7. Been cheated on: Technically, yeah.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Yeah. My mother gives reallyyy wet kisses =.=
9. Lost someone special: I keep 'em close.
10. Been depressed: To a certain extent.
11. Been drunk and threw up: YES. Haha bodoh.
THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. Red
13. Electric blue
14. Purple
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: jyeah
16. Fallen out of love: jyeahh
17. Laughed until you cried: Almost every day, courtesy of Nurul Hidayah
18. Met someone who changed you: No, I think I'm still the same old crappy Nad.
19. Found out who your true friends were: Yes?
20. Found out someone was talking about you: No.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: I kissed 'em thru da phooooone.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Almost all of them.
23. How many kids do you want?: 2?
24. Do you have any pets: Yes, you see the blog header?
25. Do you want to change your name: What's in a name?
26. What did you do for your last birthday: SHOP! :D
27. What time did you wake up today: 6.30 am
28. What were you doing at midnight: Reading some agama.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Holidays.
30. Last time you saw your Mother: About 2 hours ago.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Autism.
32. What are you listening to right now : Nude, Radiohead
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Tom MySpace? Hahaha.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Virus infected computer.
35. Most visited webpage: Tom punya tu.
36. Whats your real name: Torchlight binti Torres
37. Nicknames: Nad
38. Relationship Status: Married.
39. Zodiac sign: Libroar.
40. Male or female?: Drag queen.
41. Primary School?: SK Bukit Sekilau Sekuali
42. Secondary School?: SMART
43. High school/college?: Weh high school tu secondary school la bongok.
44. Hair colour: Red
45. Long or short: Its both. Its ... Lort
46. Height: Taller than most. Ehemmmm :D
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Wah, ramai :D
48: What do you like about yourself?: I'm taller than most people, hehehehe
49. Piercings: None. Yes, none.
51. Righty or lefty: righty.
FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: Never had one.
53. First piercing: Never had one.
54. First best friend: Sandra :)
55. First sport you joined: Swimming!
56. First vacation: Marang, Terengganu. Best place in the world.
58. First pair of trainers: A pair of Nike's.
RIGHT NOW :
59. Eating: My lips.
60. Drinking: My saliva
61. I'm about to: Go crazy
62. Listening to: Jigsaw Falling Into Place, Radiohead
63. Waiting on: The world to change.
YOUR FUTURE
64. What kids?: Why kids?
65. Get Married?: Duh
66. Career?: Psychotic psychologist
WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Eyes, mi amor.
68. Hugs or kisses: I like big bear hugs :D
69. Shorter or taller: Taller, I've had enough short remarks to last me a lifetime =.=
70. Older or Younger: Younger pon boleh! Hahahahahaha
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Both.
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Nice body.
73. Sensitive or loud: Loud, so that I can be loud too.
74. Hook-up or relationship: Hook up dohhh -___-
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Neither.
HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: Eee no.
77. Drank hard liquor: No, bongok
78. Lost glasses/contacts: Nope.
79. Sex on first date: Yes, wow its fun try lah
80. Broken someone's heart: Yes.
82. Been arrested: No.
83. Turned someone down: Yes.
84. Cried when someone died: Yes.
85. Fallen for a friend?: I love my friends :)
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: Fo' shizzle.
87. Miracles: Yes, I've had quite a few.
88. Love at first sight: No.
89. Heaven: Yes.
90. Santa Claus: Fat guy with a beer gut giving out presents to good kids? No.
91. Kiss on the first date: No.
92. Angels: Yes.
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: No
95. Did you sing today?: All the way through today.
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: No
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: 2008
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: The whole of last year.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: No, more afraid of falling out because its usually pretty messy
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: No.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)